Happy first Friday of July!
This week is the first time I've sat down to write in over two months. Touring can be pretty intense. I always kind of live my life in seasons. When I'm on tour, that's where all of my energy goes. When I'm home, I get to pour into coaching, writing, and all the other parts of my life. It's hard to do the “other” things when you're sharing a tour bus with ten people for nine weeks.
So I gave myself permission to take a break. I soaked up the little moments with my bandmates, stayed present, and enjoyed the ride.
I've been home for a week now, and getting back into my normal routine has come with its fair share of emotional highs and lows. It's interesting because tour life teaches you how to live loudly. Home allows you to hear yourself think. That's where my head has been all week. In the quiet. (And binging The Bear and Below Deck.)
However, if I'm being honest, there's a lot changing in my life right now. While everything feels exciting and new, it's also a little scary. I guess that's usually how growth works, right?
Last year, I made the decision that I'd be leaving Hollywood by the end of this summer. As the weeks go by, that decision is becoming more and more real. This apartment has been my sanctuary. I created a little home here that I absolutely love. It gave me a place to dream, to heal, to create, and to become. I'll always be grateful for these walls.
But lately, I've realized something. Sometimes we outgrow places when we've become the person we moved there to become. I don't think that means this space is failing me. I think it means it did exactly what it was supposed to do. And as grateful as I am for this chapter, I'm finding myself ready for a little more quiet, a little more peace, and a different pace of life. I've finally gotten my bearings on what I'm building, and this feels like the next right step.
All in the right time.
Through all of this change, I'm really seeing how gratitude and grief can exist at the same time. You can be deeply excited for what's next while feeling emotional about leaving something that meant so much to you. One feeling doesn't cancel out the other.
It also feels really wonderful to be back with my coaching clients and doing the work I love outside of music. Music is far from over for the year though. The band has a couple of festivals in August and September, and then we're heading to the UK for another tour this fall. Life feels really full right now, and I don't take that for granted. For me, seasons of transition definitely make me pay more attention to what's happening with my nervous system and how I choose to respond to everything around me.
I've always been a people watcher. The cool thing about traveling is that it gives me a front row seat to humanity. Human nature fascinates me. How people move through the world. The decisions they make. What they choose to hold onto, and the incredible relief that comes when they finally let something go and let life bring what it's supposed to. And I've become an expert in monitoring my thoughts and feelings when I'm in transition.
Lately, whenever I find myself in one of these in-between seasons - or I catch myself wondering if I'm somehow behind or doing things the “right” way…I come back to one of my favorite lessons from Dr. Wayne Dyer. Be like the palm tree. Deeply rooted. Strong enough to withstand the storm. Flexible enough to bend without breaking.
One thing I do know: Life isn't asking us to have everything figured out. It's asking us to stay rooted in who we are while learning to move with whatever comes next.
When I look at my life, I'm overwhelmed with gratitude. Every hard season. Every unexpected detour. Every person who crossed my path. Every moment that showed up exactly when I needed it. None of it is ever wasted. The older I get, the more I can truly appreciate the little things.
Even more so, something beautiful happens when you stop trying to force certainty. Life will always change, and instead of resisting it, I've learned to become someone who moves with it.
So here I am. Back from tour.
Packing up one chapter of my life while slowly building another.
Learning once again that growth rarely feels comfortable while it's happening. But I'm fully leaning in.
If you're in a season of change too, maybe this is your reminder: Stay rooted in who you are, but don't be afraid to bend.
Sometimes the strongest thing we can do isn't hold on tighter. It's trusting that our roots are deep enough to let the wind do its work.
I love you, all.
Lindsay M.
(Photo by Amanda Anderson)
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